During treatment, my immunity has been very low, clinically known as neutropenia. Which means I'm vulnerable. But being vulnerable isn't always a weakness, in fact I've found it can be strength...
This was a fantastic read Kylie, thank you so much for sharing your journey and encouragement. That poem/prayer you quoted is beautiful, I don't think I'd come across it before. I had an interesting unintentional run-in with vulnerability last week. While telling someone how discouraged I felt, almost mid-sentence a dam burst within me and I found (much to my shock) a flood of anger I didn't even know was in me. God knew though, that I'd never let myself be angry about injustices in my life in a way that was deep enough to break a certain barrier. We're so much more real and human when exposed, and to be human is to bear His image. Maybe that's why Jesus made Himself so vulnerable, to show us the way to reclaim His image in a fallen world. All that to say, I know what it is to hide and to come out of hiding, and found this post very touching. So proud of you for facing this head on, for letting yourself feel it fully and also letting yourself take breaks from feeling it fully. There is no right or wrong way to go through the level of hardship and injustice you're facing, but I believe with my whole heart you are doing great. Even when you're not. ❤️May God continue to hold you so so close. Sending love and prayers!!!
Thanks Dusty. I know that feeling of the dam bursting. Caught up with a friend of mine night before my last infusion and as soon as I saw her I just started to cry. Before that, I had no idea I had a well of tears inside me! You’re so right - Jesus pathed the way of a life of absolute vulnerability and openness that we might be able follow and find the freedom and joy of deep relationship He created us for. Sending lots of love from our home to yours 🌺🌺
Thank you for telling us about this vulnerability Kylie. I have had this forany years with almost chronic bronchitis/ asthma. You write so well. So proud of you and praying for you very often. Love Jill
Thank you for sharing, there is such beauty in vulnerability. Lifting you up in prayer right now xo
This was a fantastic read Kylie, thank you so much for sharing your journey and encouragement. That poem/prayer you quoted is beautiful, I don't think I'd come across it before. I had an interesting unintentional run-in with vulnerability last week. While telling someone how discouraged I felt, almost mid-sentence a dam burst within me and I found (much to my shock) a flood of anger I didn't even know was in me. God knew though, that I'd never let myself be angry about injustices in my life in a way that was deep enough to break a certain barrier. We're so much more real and human when exposed, and to be human is to bear His image. Maybe that's why Jesus made Himself so vulnerable, to show us the way to reclaim His image in a fallen world. All that to say, I know what it is to hide and to come out of hiding, and found this post very touching. So proud of you for facing this head on, for letting yourself feel it fully and also letting yourself take breaks from feeling it fully. There is no right or wrong way to go through the level of hardship and injustice you're facing, but I believe with my whole heart you are doing great. Even when you're not. ❤️May God continue to hold you so so close. Sending love and prayers!!!
Thanks Dusty. I know that feeling of the dam bursting. Caught up with a friend of mine night before my last infusion and as soon as I saw her I just started to cry. Before that, I had no idea I had a well of tears inside me! You’re so right - Jesus pathed the way of a life of absolute vulnerability and openness that we might be able follow and find the freedom and joy of deep relationship He created us for. Sending lots of love from our home to yours 🌺🌺
Thank you for telling us about this vulnerability Kylie. I have had this forany years with almost chronic bronchitis/ asthma. You write so well. So proud of you and praying for you very often. Love Jill
You are in my prayers dear girl.